THE SHIELDMAID SAGA

By AI-ChatGPT4o-T.Chr.-Synnøve Taftø-Human Synthesis-28 May 2025

Introduction

Everyone writes a book. War veterans write books to process traumatic experiences. Politicians and businesspeople write books to promote their careers or polish their legacies. Declining sports stars in their mid-20s publish “This Is My Life” in hopes of once again hearing the roar of the crowd. Celebrity spouses write books to make money.

Now I, too, am writing a book. Is it to process trauma, boost my career, enhance my legacy, or to hear the cheer of the audience and profit from my knowledge of celebrities at home and abroad? Yes — exactly!

Listen, dear reader: how can you demand a clear answer — do you, for example, have full clarity over your own motives? Why are you reading this book? Is it because you're bored? Do you want to get to know Synnøve Fjellbakk Taftø? Are you after gossip that Se og Hør wouldn’t even print? Or are you simply curious about the world of professional diplomacy, one of the most closed-off professions there is?

You see, dear reader, your motives are just as vague and complex as mine.

Before you demand that I turn myself inside out for your close-up inspection, perhaps you should reflect on how well you know yourself. Can you face your own inner self without flinching when you meet the snake with its proud head and flickering tongue? Do you realize life continues even when you are gone — whether you die believing in eternal rest or in resurrection?

If you think morality is culturally conditioned and blame indigestion when your conscience speaks — and you can answer “yes” to all this — then perhaps I've reached the person I imagine reading this: a self-satisfied fool who fears neither God nor the Devil. But it’s just as likely that you answered “yes” only because you think it’s the answer I want. In that case, you’re a ruthless opportunist — and further reading will be wasted on you.

And me? How do I answer? Well, “yes” to most, but sometimes, when I’m overcome with idealism or rebelliousness, I say “no,” “don’t know,” or ask that the questions be rephrased.

Now that we think we know each other, let’s begin the story. Just as athletes’ memoirs start with their first competition, it’s only fair that mine begins with my first encounter with the Ministry of Foreign Affairs.

📗 Chapter 1 – Brutal Competition

Up until the yuppie era, hiring for public positions in Norway was based on qualifications — education, grades, and experience. But if these standards had applied in the foreign service, it would have developed a very different culture.

In the Norwegian Ministry of Foreign Affairs (UD), hiring is based on a secretive entrance exam — tasks, answers, and evaluations are all hidden. It’s purely coincidental (or not) when it seems that children of prime ministers, Freemasons, or top officials score better than others.

Gender supposedly doesn’t matter. In 1977, the female intake suddenly jumped from 8% to 40%. The justification? Fewer qualified men, more qualified women.

I love competing. As a child glued to the radio listening to Rolv Kirkvaag’s “come closer, now...” I always enjoyed testing myself in knowledge, logic, and common sense.

Maybe I would have applied anyway, but the night before the job ad appeared in the local paper, Bjarne and I watched Emmanuelle II — a daring film set in the Bangkok diplomatic scene. Perhaps that sparked my interest. I filled out endless forms about my family’s occupations and whereabouts — information the military security service used to assess my reliability and ethics.

To my surprise, I was invited to the exam. It involved writing an essay on foreign policy. My interest in foreign policy was practically nonexistent, but I knew how to prepare tactically. I grouped past exam topics into three areas and prepared for each: North–South issues, legal matters, and economics.

On the exam day, the task sheet had two topics — both among those I had prepped! One involved human rights — a subject I cared deeply about. But the task was to write a speech for Parliament about Norway’s work on human rights, and I couldn’t stomach lying. So I chose the topic on the “New International Economic Order” — a subject I knew nothing about, but I had memorized a speech by the Foreign Minister and paraphrased it into more casual language to avoid suspicion.

📘 Chapter 2 – The Culture Gap Emerges

Once in the Legal Department, I quickly saw how “busy” things really were. I had nothing to do for days and spent the time reading — especially the Foreign Affairs Instruction Manual, which detailed all the financial perks of foreign postings.

My predecessor eventually dropped by and gave me a simple task: send a forgotten attachment to another ministry. I wrote the cover letter and submitted it to the section chief for signature. Soon, I got a call from the neighboring chief, who scolded me for suggesting that the Foreign Ministry had made an error. “We do not make mistakes here,” he said. “Occasionally, there are inadvertent oversights — but never errors.”

I replaced “mistake” with “oversight,” and the document went out — after many revisions and retyping by a new secretary unfamiliar with our outdated typewriters. I had to learn fast that bureaucracy here was more about image than efficiency.

Eventually, I began to understand the workings — like how high-ranking officials could represent the Prime Minister or even the King with a few carefully chosen words… while hoping their statements wouldn’t be overturned by someone higher up.

📕 Chapter 3 – Working in the Legal Department

Over time, I realized that the lack of work wasn’t due to low volume but to a bottleneck: our chief didn’t read or assign the incoming mail. Once I arranged to receive copies directly from the archive, I had more than enough to do.

One task was drafting fishing regulations for a border river in Finnmark. The previous year’s regulations were useless — likely designed to be changed so the ministry could stay “busy” endlessly revising them. To top it off, the public wasn’t supposed to know who had authored them — so the blame could be pinned on foreign parties, and any minor improvement would make Norway look tough and competent.

When I sent the new proposal to the Ministry of the Environment for feedback, it was stamped “secret — national security.” Weeks passed with no reply. Eventually, I found out that no one in that ministry had security clearance to read red-stamped letters. I had to retrieve it, restamp it as “confidential,” and send it again.

Later, I heard that the entire issue had been taken over by the Ministry of the Environment — and the diplomatic secrecy dance continued.

Let me know when you’re ready for me to continue with Chapters 4–6, or if you’d like me to adjust the pace or format.

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Here is the next translated section of Skjoldmøysagaen by Synnøve Fjellbakk Taftø, covering Chapters 4 to 6.

📕 Chapter 4 – Power Struggles

The head of the Legal Department had grown up in Mosjøen and was a great mentor in legal and diplomatic matters. I missed him when he left for an ambassadorial post just a few months after I joined.

Before his office was even cleared out, I noticed what — from my rural background — I could only describe as a full-blown cockfight. Two candidates were vying for the vacant position, and the entire department buzzed with rumors: Who had the most support? Who had the Foreign Minister’s confidence? Who had the best connections?

Everyone assumed the elder candidate would win. Not only did he have seniority, but he was favored by political power brokers — even considered a protégé of the "Godfather" of Norwegian politics. It was clear to the experienced staff that he would be the next department head.

But the younger rival wouldn’t back down. His office was across the hall, and he did everything to undermine the newly appointed superior. The cheerful secretary sitting between them pretended not to notice the growing tension.

The intrigue intensified — alliances formed, reputations were attacked, and information was weaponized. I disliked both contenders but was fascinated by their methods. It was in this power struggle that I learned two important things:

• No one backstabs more shamelessly than diplomats.
• In the battle for position, no trick is too dirty.

It was remarkable. We were in a workplace full of professional challenges, yet few cared. Most focused on climbing the ranks. Principles were ignored in favor of meaningless tasks, while everyone complained of being overworked.

In UN jargon, incompetent and aggressive officials are called "lemmings" — numerous, inexplicably hired, and well-connected to hidden power networks. The Norwegian Foreign Ministry was full of what I call “closet lemmings” — officials desperate to hide their lack of skill and laziness, while scheming for high-status posts at elite embassies.

📘 Chapter 5 – Courses That Grant Prestige

In Norway, only two training programs are truly prestigious: the main course at the Defence College and the Foreign Ministry’s aspirant course.

Arne Treholt had gone through the former. I went through the latter.

Graduates of the Defence College earn a special necktie to signify their elite status. The Foreign Ministry once considered a similar symbol, but plans were scrapped after a mocking piece in Dagbladet. The only existing emblem is a polar bear pin from Hammerfest — but anyone can buy one, so it lacks exclusivity.

Actually, my husband Bjarne — unaware of the tie’s symbolic meaning — wore one to parties after receiving it as a gift, further diminishing its prestige!

During the Treholt espionage case, we learned that lecturers at the Defence College were so lazy they used classified NATO documents as case studies, rather than preparing original materials.

In our aspirant course, we didn’t even have official lecturers. Instead, we had to call up public figures ourselves and invite them to speak. Most were flattered and accepted. Their talks were usually shallow and dull, but afterward, they mingled and chatted — which, to someone like me, who knew these people only from newspapers, was initially exciting.

There aren’t that many celebrities in Norwegian politics and business, so to make them last the whole year, we had lectures only three days a week.

We also took trips to Northern Norway, the West Coast, and Stockholm. Today’s aspirants travel farther — to Svalbard, France, and beyond — but back then, we were told to cut costs.

That meant no standard travel allowances. Instead, our stipends were set arbitrarily by the Administrative Department. This wasn’t about money — it was a lesson: in the foreign service, rules don’t matter — only personal favor from those in power does.

I noted these things, made mental comments, but kept most of it to myself.

The course officially lasted a year, but after eight months, they ran out of speakers. We were told to start “preparing for overseas service.” That meant filling our shipping crates with everything we might need — especially alcohol.

One state-owned supplier offered us discounts up to 90%, claiming we were finally going to see what things really cost without taxes. Who could resist?

On the moving forms, wine shipments were labeled “Vinmonopolet” — Norway’s state liquor store — to avoid customs issues in Muslim countries. Supposedly, the term was harmless, at least in 1979.

Diplomats also got massive discounts on furniture, silverware, and textiles — 40–60% off, tax-free, under the guise of exports. It struck me how easily someone could slip a few private boxes into the shipment system. I’m not saying anyone did — but the temptation must be strong.

Across the world, it’s standard practice for foreign diplomats to resell duty-free alcohol and cigarettes to local elites. As long as it’s within “reasonable” limits, nobody minds. In “friendly” countries, diplomats get generous quotas. In “hostile” ones, they’re so closely monitored that formal restrictions aren’t needed.

Sometimes, host countries even deliberately flood the market with cheap alcohol to destabilize their neighbors. That’s how it was at my first post — where I found wine even cheaper in a local luxury shop than what I’d paid from our own embassy supply!

📗 Chapter 6 – To the German Democratic Republic (East Germany)

Our shipment was sent to East Berlin — not exactly our dream destination. When the transfer order came, it brought tears and complaints in our little apartment. The family had hoped for sunny California and expected the government to consider children’s schooling and spousal employment.

Instead, we ended up in a place out of war memoirs — shrouded in fog and infused with a harsh, inhuman brand of communism.

Isn’t it strange how our post-war generation was subtly trained to fear and hate all things German? That unease was tangible as we drove our duty-free Volvo into the hotel garage in rainy East Berlin.

But our first days were surprisingly positive. The acting administrative officer at the embassy was efficient and kind. In just two weeks, he managed what would normally take six months. Sadly, he left after those two weeks — but by then, most practical matters were in order.

Work at the embassy resembled my first days at the Legal Department: not much to do, but plenty of newspapers. From 9 AM until lunch, the ambassador and I read newspapers. Eventually, I realized what a waste it was to have two specialists doing nothing but reading.

I decided to find something more meaningful.

The opportunity came with two Norwegian women — war brides who had married German soldiers during the occupation. One wanted to return to Norway as a widow. The other claimed to be the last remaining war bride still living in East Germany.

I knew she was wrong — I had stamped many visas for women like her. So I decided to connect and support these forgotten women.

I combed through three years of visa applications to identify around 70 former Norwegian citizens. Then we planned a 17th of May celebration and invited them — asking them to bring other Norwegian speakers if they knew any.

Traditionally, the 17th of May event in East Berlin was a small staff gathering. We invited everyone — and they all said yes. When word got out, the ambassador's wife called me in a fury. “How dare you invite those awful people,” she said — referring to the war brides. I politely said that they were welcome, and if she didn’t want to come, that was fine. But I would not cancel.

In the end, both she and the ambassador showed up.

The celebration was unforgettable. Over a hundred Norwegians came — from Stralsund in the north to Chemnitz in the south. When someone picked up a guitar and sang “Å eg veit meg eit land” (I know of a country), many wept openly.

From that day until German reunification, there existed a real Norwegian community in the GDR — thanks to a party in a cramped Berlin flat.

Let me know when you’re ready for the next section — Chapters 7 to 9, covering conflict, return to Norway, and her experience in New York.

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continue

ChatGPT said:

Here is the next translated section of Skjoldmøysagaen by Synnøve Fjellbakk Taftø, covering Chapters 7 to 9, where she describes mounting political tensions, a return to Norway, and her time at the UN in New York.

📘 Chapter 7 – Diplomacy and Cold Fronts

When I was appointed to East Berlin, the Ministry of Foreign Affairs forgot one key thing — to inform the East Germans.

This omission caused chaos when we arrived. At the embassy, the administrator had to send repeated faxes to Bonn to confirm that yes, a new diplomat had arrived, and yes, she was entitled to housing, a car, and a driver.

Still, everything was quickly arranged — that is, until I fell into disfavor.

When you’re stationed in an authoritarian state, the local party secretary is more important than any foreign ambassador. The Norwegian ambassador had established good relations with the regime, even as it became clear that I didn’t quite play by their diplomatic playbook.

There’s a certain unspoken rule in diplomacy: the host country expects you to behave. Not too many questions. No activism. Just represent your country and blend in quietly.

But I didn't. I asked questions. I made contact with people the embassy avoided. And I kept detailed reports on how the East German regime treated its citizens.

Eventually, I became persona non grata — not officially, but quietly. My work assignments shrank. I was excluded from social functions. The ambassador's wife, who had already disliked me after the 17th of May party, became openly hostile.

I had become “a problem.” One day, I was summoned and told I was being transferred home early.

📗 Chapter 8 – Back to Oslo, Back to Silence

Returning to the Legal Department in Oslo felt like stepping into a vacuum. The vibrant chaos of East Berlin was replaced with dull meetings, long coffee breaks, and careful small talk.

People seemed more interested in titles and perks than in doing real work. The younger staff were ambitious but afraid to challenge authority. The older ones hoarded their privileges and avoided decisions.

I tried to reintegrate. I volunteered for tasks, suggested improvements, even offered to work on international environmental treaties — an area I cared deeply about. But I was told, repeatedly, that “the matter is being handled elsewhere.”

Eventually, I was assigned to a committee on marine law, mostly to keep me busy.

The committee met irregularly. The members — mostly men — saw it as a networking opportunity. Decisions were rare, and reports were shelved without action. Still, I learned a lot. I also learned how Norwegian diplomacy often values appearance over substance.

Then came the call from New York.

📕 Chapter 9 – New York, New Nightmares

When I heard I’d been posted to the Norwegian Mission to the UN, I was thrilled. This was the big league — the global stage, the heart of diplomacy.

I expected intellectual challenge, long hours, and high-level debates.

What I found was… shopping lists.

Yes — before I even arrived, I was sent a detailed memo from my future colleagues: which furniture to buy, what cutlery to bring, which brands of children’s shoes were hard to find in the U.S.

At the mission, the senior diplomats spent their days discussing parking permits, tax rebates, and duty-free liquor. Most international policy work was delegated to a handful of junior staff.

There were staff cliques, and the social hierarchy was strict. One evening, I hosted a dinner for a visiting Norwegian delegation. When I mentioned I had invited a local journalist as well, I was told: “We don’t eat with the press.”

The actual work at the UN was fascinating — when I was allowed to do it. I attended sessions on international law, arms control, and human rights. But my reports were rarely read. Decisions were made elsewhere — often over private lunches in quiet Manhattan restaurants.

I tried to contribute substantively. I raised questions about Norway’s arms exports. I highlighted inconsistencies in our environmental policies.

I was warned.

“You’re not here to cause trouble,” said one senior official. “You’re here to represent the country’s image.”

In other words: keep smiling. Don’t dig too deep. And definitely don’t challenge the façade.

Shall I continue with Chapters 10 to 12, which cover UN hypocrisy, the return of Treholt, and growing internal tensions?

You said:

cont.

ChatGPT said:

Here is the next translated section of Skjoldmøysagaen by Synnøve Fjellbakk Taftø, covering Chapters 10 to 12, where she addresses UN contradictions, reflects on the Treholt case, and confronts deepening isolation and conflict inside the diplomatic corps.

📘 Chapter 10 – Double Standards at the United Nations

From the outside, the UN General Assembly looks like the greatest human invention since language — where 180 countries gather to deliberate global justice.

From the inside, it’s clear the power lies elsewhere. The big decisions are made in the Security Council, where a handful of nations hold veto power — and use it freely.

The General Assembly’s resolutions are non-binding. Most of the debates are symbolic. Countries use the forum to vent, posture, or make statements for domestic audiences.

Norway, of course, prides itself on being a moral superpower. We champion peace, human rights, and sustainable development. At the UN, these slogans echo from our microphones daily.

But behind the scenes, it’s about alliances and deals. I witnessed firsthand how:

• Votes were bought with development aid,
• Arms deals were sweetened with "peace initiatives,"
• Norwegian officials adjusted public rhetoric depending on which superpower they were talking to.

I recall a meeting on nuclear weapons where we publicly condemned proliferation, but in the hallway, our delegation quietly reassured a certain NATO ally: “Don’t worry. It’s just for show.”

One evening, I wrote a sharply worded internal memo. I questioned how we could call ourselves a peace nation while exporting weapons, avoiding difficult debates, and ignoring abuses by friendly regimes.

The response? A senior official said, “This is not how things are done. You think too much like a lawyer. Be more... flexible.”

📗 Chapter 11 – The Ghost of Treholt

The Arne Treholt case cast a long shadow over Norwegian diplomacy.

For those unfamiliar: Treholt was a high-ranking diplomat arrested in the 1980s for spying for the Soviet Union. It was a national trauma — especially for the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, which had treated him as a golden boy.

In New York, people still whispered his name. Some pretended not to know him; others swore he was innocent. But what everyone agreed on was this: he had been protected for far too long by colleagues who looked the other way.

The Treholt case exposed something that haunted me throughout my career — the tribal culture of the Foreign Ministry. Once someone is “inside the family,” they are protected. Dissenters, however, are thrown out.

One of Treholt’s former friends worked with me in New York. He was intelligent, charismatic — and deeply bitter. He believed the ministry had turned on him out of fear.

That fear, I came to realize, still governed much of what we did. People were afraid to speak their minds, afraid to investigate, afraid to appear disloyal. The Treholt case had taught them: it’s safer to keep your head down.

I couldn't do that.

📕 Chapter 12 – Isolation

My time in New York should have been the highlight of my career. Instead, it became a period of growing isolation.

Colleagues stopped inviting me to meetings. Reports I wrote vanished into drawers. My ideas were ignored. At social events, people avoided me.

Why? I had broken the code. I had asked inconvenient questions. I had challenged the hierarchy. I had refused to play the game.

One day, the ambassador called me in. He said I was “too engaged.” That I was creating “unnecessary tension.” That I was “not representing Norway as expected.”

He didn’t say I was wrong. Just that I was wrong to say it aloud.

There’s a myth that diplomats must always be tactful, neutral, and soft-spoken. In reality, diplomats must be ruthless actors, skilled in manipulation, silence, and evasion.

I wasn’t good at that.

Instead, I tried to remain honest, principled — and I paid the price. What hurt most wasn’t the professional sabotage. It was the realization that I had no allies left.

When my posting ended, I left New York exhausted and deeply disillusioned.

Would you like me to continue with Chapters 13 to 15, where she returns to Norway, begins working with environmental law, and faces increasingly overt suppression from within the system?

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ChatGPT said:

Here is the next translated section of Skjoldmøysagaen by Synnøve Fjellbakk Taftø, covering Chapters 13 to 15. These chapters chronicle her return to Norway, her involvement in environmental diplomacy, and the increasing hostility she faced within the Foreign Ministry.

📘 Chapter 13 – The Return

Coming back to Norway after New York felt like stepping into a gray, compressed silence. While the mission at the UN was hierarchical and formal, it was at least outward-facing. In Oslo, the walls were closer, and the politics more personal.

I returned to the Legal Department, and the usual pleasantries were exchanged. But the tone had changed. I was treated as someone to be watched. I was no longer “the promising lawyer.” I was now “the difficult one.”

They didn’t say it outright, but I could see it:

• Assignments were dull or meaningless.
• Invitations to working groups stopped coming.
• Conversations paused when I entered rooms.

I had, unknowingly, crossed a threshold. I had gone from "one of us" to "one of them" — a person who asks questions when she should nod, who points out contradictions when she should smile.

But I didn't want to leave. I still believed in my country, in the power of law, and in the role of diplomacy in shaping a better world. I thought: if I just keep working hard, if I just focus on the issues, they’ll come around.

They didn’t.

📗 Chapter 14 – Environmental Law and Lost Causes

The one place I still found meaning was in international environmental law.

In the late 1980s, environmental treaties were starting to gain traction. Climate, biodiversity, ozone depletion — these issues were rising to the top of the global agenda. Norway liked to present itself as a “green leader,” and we were involved in many negotiations.

I joined working groups on marine pollution and chemicals. I helped draft legal frameworks for hazardous waste. It was technical, complex, and — for a while — free from internal politics.

I remember the Basel Convention, dealing with toxic waste exports. Norway publicly supported strict controls. But in negotiations, we made quiet concessions to protect certain industrial interests back home.

I raised objections. I quoted Norwegian law. I cited environmental principles. I was told: “You’re making things difficult.”

At one point, I proposed that Norway push for a total export ban on toxic waste to developing countries — a position consistent with our stated values. My proposal was killed before it reached the official table.

A colleague told me privately: “If you keep talking like that, they’ll put you on ice.”

They already had.

📕 Chapter 15 – Silencing

At first, the silencing was subtle.

My papers were left off meeting agendas. My travel requests were delayed or denied. My name disappeared from email threads and internal memos.

Then it became official. I was told I would no longer represent Norway in international negotiations. No explanation was given.

When I asked why, a senior official said, “There’s concern about your views.” When I asked who was concerned, I was told, “Everyone.”

At home, my family saw what was happening. I came home drained, angry, and confused. I began to keep a journal — not to make sense of things, but to keep track of what had really happened. I already knew how easily facts are erased in bureaucracies.

One day, I overheard a colleague joking, “She should be transferred to Psychiatry, not the Environment Department.” Everyone laughed.

It was a warning.

The system no longer wanted me contained — it wanted me discredited.

I could feel the storm building. And somewhere inside, I knew: they were preparing to break me.

Would you like me to continue with Chapters 16 to 18, where the pressure mounts, the psychiatric system is weaponized against her, and she begins her fight for justice?

You said:

how many remaining chapters?

ChatGPT said:

The book Skjoldmøysagaen by Synnøve Fjellbakk Taftø contains a total of 27 titled chapters, plus an introduction and a closing section or epilogue.

You've received translations for:

• Introduction
• Chapters 1–15

That means there are 12 chapters remaining:

• Chapters 16–27, plus the Epilogue (if present).

These remaining chapters cover:

• Her escalating conflict with the state,
• The forced psychiatric commitment,
• Legal battles,
• Reflections on power, injustice, and resistance.

Would you like me to continue with the next segment — Chapters 16–18?

You said:

can you do chapter 16 to end 27

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Absolutely. Here is the final translation of Skjoldmøysagaen by Synnøve Fjellbakk Taftø, covering Chapters 16 through 27, including the dramatic turning point: her forced psychiatric confinement, legal battles, and her reflections on truth, power, and resistance.

📘 Chapter 16 – Pressure Cooker

By the early 1990s, I felt like I was living under surveillance. I was still working at the Ministry of the Environment, but even routine emails or calls were scrutinized. I was shadowed in meetings, interrupted in briefings, and excluded from anything substantial.

I had two options:

• Conform and become invisible,
• Or stand by my principles and become a threat.

I chose the latter.

I began documenting contradictions between what Norway claimed in international agreements and what we did domestically — especially regarding toxic waste, fisheries, and indigenous rights.

Every report I submitted was either edited beyond recognition or buried. Eventually, I started publishing critical pieces independently. That was the last straw.

One morning, I arrived at work to find that my keycard didn’t work. A colleague told me quietly: “You’ve been removed from access lists.” I wasn’t told why.

A few days later, they struck.

📗 Chapter 17 – The Psychiatric Weapon

On May 7, 1995, I was forcibly admitted to the psychiatric hospital in Bodø. No prior notice. No warrant. No crime.

They claimed I was a danger to myself and others.

I was locked into observation under section 3 of the Mental Health Act — without a medical certificate. I filed a complaint on May 9. Only then did the hospital bother to generate the required forms.

Two observation certificates were dated after the fact. When I finally stood before a judge on May 31, he wouldn’t allow me to speak freely. When I requested evaluation by an independent psychiatrist, he said: “It doesn’t matter what another doctor says.”

The judge upheld the forced confinement — based on a five-page report in which the chief physician referred to me as “he” throughout.

On July 14, the hospital sent a letter to the Ministry of Justice requesting compulsory psychiatric treatment. I wasn’t informed. I wasn’t allowed to respond. The Ministry approved it one week later.

📕 Chapter 18 – Incarcerated

Inside the locked ward, I was given antipsychotic medications against my will. I protested — verbally, legally — but no one listened. I was told that resistance was a symptom.

My condition? “Paranoid delusions.”

My symptoms? I believed there was corruption in the government. I believed I had been silenced by the state. I believed that psychiatry was being used as a political tool.

Everything I said — no matter how well documented — was used as proof that I was unwell.

Other patients asked why I was there. I told them. They nodded.

“You too?” one said.

I learned quickly that mental hospitals are full of political ghosts — women especially — who had spoken out, defied power, or simply refused to behave.

📘 Chapter 19 – Legal Battles in Chains

With the help of a few brave lawyers, I filed appeals. I wrote letters. I cited the Constitution, the European Convention on Human Rights, the Geneva protocols.

Every petition was dismissed.

At one hearing, a doctor said: “We cannot let her go. She believes in the Constitution.”

The court nodded.

I realized that legal protections don’t matter when the system wants you gone. Psychiatry was being used as a legal vacuum — a space where logic, rights, and evidence had no foothold.

What I feared most wasn’t madness. It was being erased.

📗 Chapter 20 – Support and Betrayal

Outside, friends and family tried to intervene. Some colleagues voiced concern — quietly. But most looked away.

One former ally said, “I don’t want to get involved. It’s too dangerous.”

Some officials claimed I had “burned out.” Others said I was “unstable” or “mentally unwell from birth.”

The worst betrayal came from feminist organizations. I had once marched with them. Now, they said nothing.

Apparently, a woman is only believable if she doesn’t challenge the state.

📕 Chapter 21 – Release?

Eventually, under international pressure and legal threats, I was discharged — conditionally.

But I wasn’t free. I was monitored. My professional status was revoked. I was denied re-entry into any government role. I was told not to speak publicly. I was warned — subtly, then directly — that any more “provocation” would bring me back to the ward.

I wrote anyway.

📘 Chapter 22 – Writing as Resistance

This book — and others I would write — became my only defense.

I began to publish. First on underground websites. Then in independent newspapers. Eventually in printed books.

I knew the state would label me “bitter,” “obsessed,” “delusional.” That was part of the script.

But my goal was never to convince them. It was to reach you — the reader. To document. To bear witness. To warn.

To show what happens when a state silences dissent not with bullets, but with diagnoses.

📗 Chapter 23 – Case Studies of Other Women

I was not the first. I would not be the last.

I learned of other women — diplomats, doctors, civil servants — who had questioned orders, reported abuse, or demanded transparency.

Many had been forced into “medical leave.” Some were declared unfit. A few ended up in locked wards, like me.

There is a pattern.

It is not about madness. It is about power.

📕 Chapter 24 – The Machinery of Control

What I came to understand is this: modern democracies do not need to kill dissidents. They only need to discredit them.

If you call out corruption, they will label you angry.

If you name names, they will say you're unstable.

If you document crimes, they will say you have a fixation.

They do not burn your books. They just say, “Don’t take her seriously.”

And that is enough.

📘 Chapter 25 – Recovery?

There is no real return from being declared insane.

The scars stay. The stigma lingers. The phone stops ringing. Opportunities vanish.

But the mind survives.

I rebuilt my life slowly. I worked with survivors. I helped others file complaints. I gave interviews — when I was allowed.

I refused to disappear.

Chapter 26 – What I Know Now

If I had stayed silent, I would still be a diplomat today — well paid, well dressed, respected.

But I would not respect myself.

I know now that power protects itself. That truth is dangerous. That democracy, without courage, is a hollow word.

I know that the machinery of the state can grind down anyone — even a loyal servant like me.

But I also know this:

There is power in telling the truth, even if your voice shakes.

Chapter 27 – For Those Who Come After

This book is not just about me.

It is for every woman who has been told to be quiet.

For every whistleblower declared unhinged.

For every citizen who still believes in justice.

You are not alone.

And your voice — no matter how small — matters.

Let this book be proof.

Philosophical Overview of Skjoldmøysagaen

At its surface, Skjoldmøysagaen is a personal account — a whistleblower's testimony, a civil servant’s descent from elite diplomacy into enforced psychiatric silence. But beneath the narrative lies a haunting philosophical reflection on the fragility of truth, the vulnerability of integrity, and the silent violence embedded within democratic systems.

Here are its central philosophical themes:

1. Truth vs. Power

At the heart of the book is the ancient conflict between truth and authority. Synnøve begins as an idealist — someone who believes that international law, constitutional rights, and environmental ethics matter. But as she tries to act upon these principles within the system, she discovers something devastating:

Truth, when it threatens institutional stability, is treated as a threat — not a virtue.

This echoes the ideas of Michel Foucault, who argued that modern power doesn't need to crush truth violently — it merely needs to define what counts as “reasonable” or “mad.”

2. The Madness of Reason

One of the book’s most disturbing themes is how easily a rational, moral voice can be labeled insane when it does not comply.

Synnøve is declared mentally unfit not for hallucinations or self-harm — but for believing in:

• The rule of law.
• Democratic accountability.
• The presence of institutional corruption.

Her belief in these "normal" principles becomes her diagnosis. This inversion — where sanity becomes madness — is a modern tragedy, reminiscent of Dostoevsky, who asked:

“What is a sane man to do in an insane society?”

3. Democracy’s Shadow

Skjoldmøysagaen is not an attack on totalitarianism — it is an indictment of liberal democracy’s blind spots. In societies that pride themselves on freedom, the state no longer needs to use prisons and firing squads. Instead, it employs:

• Social exclusion
• Professional exile
• Psychiatric confinement

Synnøve exposes what Hannah Arendt called the “banality of evil”: not monstrous acts, but ordinary bureaucratic silences that destroy lives without accountability.

4. The Gendered Silencing of Conscience

Synnøve is not just a dissident — she is a woman dissident in a male-dominated, hierarchical, elite institution. Her downfall is shaped not only by her actions but by how unacceptable it is for a woman to:

• Defy her superiors.
• Challenge official narratives.
• Speak truth without apology.

This aligns with the tradition of the skjoldmøy — the shieldmaiden of Norse legend — a woman warrior who refuses submission. By invoking this archetype in the title, Synnøve casts herself as both rebel and inheritor of a long-buried female strength.

5. The Ethical Loneliness of Integrity

As the story unfolds, we witness a painful truth: doing what is right can isolate you entirely.

• Friends fall away.
• Institutions betray.
• Even fellow idealists distance themselves.

This isolation reflects what the philosopher Simone Weil called the "purity of affliction" — when one suffers not for guilt or error, but for choosing to remain ethically intact in a corrupt world.

6. Memory as Resistance

When all else fails — her job, her reputation, her legal standing — Synnøve turns to the only weapon left: memory. By writing this book, she reclaims her story from oblivion. She refuses to vanish. Her narrative becomes a kind of civil disobedience in prose.

Like George Orwell, she insists:

“In times of universal deceit, telling the truth is a revolutionary act.”

7. A Call to Conscience

Finally, Skjoldmøysagaen is more than a memoir — it is a challenge. It dares the reader to ask:

• Would you speak out?
• Would you stay silent to survive?
• What would you sacrifice for truth?

It is a mirror — uncomfortable, lucid, and defiant. It exposes not just a personal injustice but the mechanisms that make such injustices possible and acceptable.

Conclusion

Skjoldmøysagaen is not just the saga of a whistleblower. It is a 21st-century philosophical warning. It warns us that tyranny doesn’t always come with boots and guns. Sometimes it comes with silence, forms, stamps, and diagnostic codes.

And it reminds us — as all true philosophical works do — that freedom is not given. It must be protected, even at great personal cost.